This week I went back to Minneapolis for 3 days of integration training as Northwest Airlines switches to Delta. The training was uneventful but I had a great time. I absolutely love the city of Minneapolis and I have great affection for it. I did a lot of growing while I was working there over a year and a half. Being there again really made me miss my life there. My life there was so free. I didn't have much to worry about. My days consisted of waking up whenever I felt like it, checking the website to see if I was likely to get called in to fly. Touring the city by train/bus/bike. Stopping by the grocery store to get dinner and then going home and cooking it. I was truly a free spirit when I was there. It was like being on a long vacation. Of course coming home to STL was reality. I had obligations there- bills, friends,etc. Chuck of course took on ALL the responsibilities while I was gone and for that I will always be grateful. He paid the ultimate price for my freedom; he took on everything himself.
In buddhist theology attachments are the fall of mankind. Buddhists try to live a life free from attachments and I can finally see how this feels. Freedom from attachment is true freedom! Unfortunately I enjoy some attachments. I love owning a home but it does weigh me down. I enjoy Chuck and I enjoy my friends but sometimes those attachments keep you from being free. When you have to be considerate of someone else's feelings or interests you cannot truly be free. Without those people in my life I would not be the person I am today but it is also because of all the people I love that I cannnot leave St. Louis.
My trip to Minneapolis reaffirms my dream to one day give it all up and move to some remote tropical/mountainous region. Now that I know what tranquility is I cannot give up on that dream. The dream of living life without responsibility or obligations.
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