This week I went back to Minneapolis for 3 days of integration training as Northwest Airlines switches to Delta. The training was uneventful but I had a great time. I absolutely love the city of Minneapolis and I have great affection for it. I did a lot of growing while I was working there over a year and a half. Being there again really made me miss my life there. My life there was so free. I didn't have much to worry about. My days consisted of waking up whenever I felt like it, checking the website to see if I was likely to get called in to fly. Touring the city by train/bus/bike. Stopping by the grocery store to get dinner and then going home and cooking it. I was truly a free spirit when I was there. It was like being on a long vacation. Of course coming home to STL was reality. I had obligations there- bills, friends,etc. Chuck of course took on ALL the responsibilities while I was gone and for that I will always be grateful. He paid the ultimate price for my freedom; he took on everything himself.
In buddhist theology attachments are the fall of mankind. Buddhists try to live a life free from attachments and I can finally see how this feels. Freedom from attachment is true freedom! Unfortunately I enjoy some attachments. I love owning a home but it does weigh me down. I enjoy Chuck and I enjoy my friends but sometimes those attachments keep you from being free. When you have to be considerate of someone else's feelings or interests you cannot truly be free. Without those people in my life I would not be the person I am today but it is also because of all the people I love that I cannnot leave St. Louis.
My trip to Minneapolis reaffirms my dream to one day give it all up and move to some remote tropical/mountainous region. Now that I know what tranquility is I cannot give up on that dream. The dream of living life without responsibility or obligations.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
The Twillight Series
After all the hype about this series I had decided that I wasn't really interested in reading a vampire love story. I mean, I'm not 16 and not gothic so why would I be interested in this book?
For the last few months I heard about this book over and over from ladies that I work with. People that I didn't think would be into this book but they were...it intrigued me. I had to read it to find out what was so great about it...and then I was hooked. I tried to look back to see how this could have happened-15 minutes waiting in the doctor's office, 30 minutes while I was getting my hair dyed, an hour long plane ride. Then I was obsessed. Staying up late to finish the book because I couldn't stand not knowing what was going to happen next. I put my foot down on the second book. "I'm not going to start reading it until summer when I have extra time" I told some co-workers. Somehow a week later I was finishing the second book and then the third. I couldn't stop.
So what was it that I liked so much about the book? Am I secretly obsessed with vampires? Not at all. The part of the book that really did it for me was the love story. I'm not really a sappy movie type person nor do I really believe in the hollywood, make believe way of falling in love, white picket fence, etc. What I really liked was that the author really captured the essence of what it feels like to be with someone new. To learn about someone new and feel the pleasant sexual tension between you both. This is the most exciting part of a relationship, the new, the unfamiliar, the intoxication. This is also the part that can never be relived and I think that this what many misconcieve as love. Of course it seems accurate to label this feeling as love because it is such a strong and pleasant feeling...how could it not be love? The author does a great job capturing the newness of a relationship, something that I haven't had in a long time. I think that's why I loved the book so much. I was able to live a part of my life through the characters and feel how they felt.
For the last few months I heard about this book over and over from ladies that I work with. People that I didn't think would be into this book but they were...it intrigued me. I had to read it to find out what was so great about it...and then I was hooked. I tried to look back to see how this could have happened-15 minutes waiting in the doctor's office, 30 minutes while I was getting my hair dyed, an hour long plane ride. Then I was obsessed. Staying up late to finish the book because I couldn't stand not knowing what was going to happen next. I put my foot down on the second book. "I'm not going to start reading it until summer when I have extra time" I told some co-workers. Somehow a week later I was finishing the second book and then the third. I couldn't stop.
So what was it that I liked so much about the book? Am I secretly obsessed with vampires? Not at all. The part of the book that really did it for me was the love story. I'm not really a sappy movie type person nor do I really believe in the hollywood, make believe way of falling in love, white picket fence, etc. What I really liked was that the author really captured the essence of what it feels like to be with someone new. To learn about someone new and feel the pleasant sexual tension between you both. This is the most exciting part of a relationship, the new, the unfamiliar, the intoxication. This is also the part that can never be relived and I think that this what many misconcieve as love. Of course it seems accurate to label this feeling as love because it is such a strong and pleasant feeling...how could it not be love? The author does a great job capturing the newness of a relationship, something that I haven't had in a long time. I think that's why I loved the book so much. I was able to live a part of my life through the characters and feel how they felt.
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